Guess what? I did not take the 2015 Bar Exams. Why? I am expecting a baby girl this February.
Before my pregnancy, I never thought that I will have any problem regarding having a new baby. Basis? I did not have any with my first child.
Sadly, in July, I hardly touched any of my books or review materials. That encapsulates why I decided not to take the exam though I filed my application.
Second week of January 2016 is over and still I have not started reviewing. Oh! Come on! I need a miracle. My brain tells me that I need to motivate myself.
I'm back to the drawing board.
This is not just about the bar exam. This is about who I am.
Thursday, January 14, 2016
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Here I Am, Here I Am
It's been a while....
There is no point to narrate what happened during these past few months.
I must address MY problem NOW if I really want to get to the finish line.
REALIZATION: I wasted so much time.
After reading a couple of books, review materials and a 2014 Criminal Law Bar Questions, I realized that though I felt like I was comprehending the materials, "recall" is a no friend of mine. This spells disaster.
After slacking off or I should say "slowing down" these past few days, last night, I read an e-book about memory. I am not yet done reading it. However, some ideas are floating and I feel the need to to put it in black and white.
Question: how can I remember all law vitamins?
I am a teacher. I learn when I teach.
I remember when I hear something and say things.
I have to make a plan, a master plan that will make Recall say "here I am, here I am. How do you do?"
There is no point to narrate what happened during these past few months.
I must address MY problem NOW if I really want to get to the finish line.
REALIZATION: I wasted so much time.
After reading a couple of books, review materials and a 2014 Criminal Law Bar Questions, I realized that though I felt like I was comprehending the materials, "recall" is a no friend of mine. This spells disaster.
After slacking off or I should say "slowing down" these past few days, last night, I read an e-book about memory. I am not yet done reading it. However, some ideas are floating and I feel the need to to put it in black and white.
Question: how can I remember all law vitamins?
I am a teacher. I learn when I teach.
I remember when I hear something and say things.
I have to make a plan, a master plan that will make Recall say "here I am, here I am. How do you do?"
Sunday, January 4, 2015
First Thing First
As of this writing, I have not yet decided whether I will take the bar this 2015 or not.
Emotions are rock 'n rollin. All them. I even don't know where others are coming from.
Maybe some are triggered by the death of my father. Some are from the condition inside the house, the inundating negativity that surrounds me. Others are the realization that I have to go back to school empty-handed. There is so much more which I refuse to write because I don't feel like nurturing monsters in my life. Or maybe, these are just the important ones that I need to address.
To start the day right, I opened "The Secret." I prayed. I read the Bible, 'Our Daily Bread' and 'Making the Most of Today." Now, I am writing... I just feel I need to do all of these...
The most striking message so far is: "Teach us to number our days so that we will spend them wisely." This is a reminder that life is so short.
The 2015 bar is also fast approaching.
First thing first. I have to start preparing for my class later.
Emotions are rock 'n rollin. All them. I even don't know where others are coming from.
Maybe some are triggered by the death of my father. Some are from the condition inside the house, the inundating negativity that surrounds me. Others are the realization that I have to go back to school empty-handed. There is so much more which I refuse to write because I don't feel like nurturing monsters in my life. Or maybe, these are just the important ones that I need to address.
To start the day right, I opened "The Secret." I prayed. I read the Bible, 'Our Daily Bread' and 'Making the Most of Today." Now, I am writing... I just feel I need to do all of these...
The most striking message so far is: "Teach us to number our days so that we will spend them wisely." This is a reminder that life is so short.
The 2015 bar is also fast approaching.
First thing first. I have to start preparing for my class later.
Thursday, November 6, 2014
Heaven is For Real
What He is trying to say is that I must have a rock-hard faith in Him.
He reminded me of my experiences of the so-called "glimpse of heaven." These are important in combating depression attacks.
Another important message is meditation. I have to learn doing this.Practice this.
Last is becoming a vegetarian. Oh! I do not know if can be that. For now, I'll start with drinking water. Cleansing, that is. Then, fruits and vegetables. Well, this could be easier if I have money.
His Messages
On October 26 Mass, God told me what to do with some of the pains I have in my heart, pains that have been transforming me to a person I never thought I would be...
Forgive unconditionally. That is. I can't say that I have executed this fully for every day is a battle for me. Every morning, I find myself reciting the things I should say but at the end of the day, those words are left unuttered. Well, the burden is lighter now, I must say. Awareness of what is ought to be done is something.
The following week, He spoke to me again when I attended the mass. He said find a MODEL. I must be careful with this one because the one I chose will lead me to OCTOBAR success. This is another thing that is left unaccomplished.
Forgive unconditionally. That is. I can't say that I have executed this fully for every day is a battle for me. Every morning, I find myself reciting the things I should say but at the end of the day, those words are left unuttered. Well, the burden is lighter now, I must say. Awareness of what is ought to be done is something.
The following week, He spoke to me again when I attended the mass. He said find a MODEL. I must be careful with this one because the one I chose will lead me to OCTOBAR success. This is another thing that is left unaccomplished.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Connect the Dots
My thoughts right now are nightmarish...
Dark. Disturbing. Lingering.
I am officially on vacation right now but here I am still up.
I just want to release my pent-up emotions in a manner that is acceptable. Writing will probably suit such criteria.
It dawned to me that it will be just my hubby and baby who will be with me during the battle.
I am jealous - jealous of those who have others to support them.
I am groping in the dark .
Will I get there?
Financially, the figure is in the negative.
As to friends, I feel like they are too far. I need them. I need real friends.
I wanna scream, "I just don't get it." I really wanna know why. I want to dispel it by just accepting the statement that "there are things that are not meant to be understood." How can I just ignore it when my self-esteem is badly hurt...
I wish I can just pass my paper and say, "it's over."
Monday, October 13, 2014
Will I?
Faith plus action. It’s the secret to staying on track toward your goals, no matter what.- Bob Proctor
It is not enough to just take action;believing is important. Conceiving is part of the process, the preparation. Likewise, believing is neither enough. It must be coupled with the "necessary" action.
Octobar, here I come... (I was quite hesitant when I typed that. Gosh!)
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