Connect the Dots

My thoughts right now are nightmarish...

Dark. Disturbing. Lingering.

I am officially on vacation right now but here I am still up.

I just want to release my pent-up emotions in a manner that is acceptable. Writing will probably suit such criteria.

It dawned to me that it will be just my hubby and baby who will be with me during the battle. 

I am jealous - jealous of those who have others to support them. 

I am groping in the dark . 

Will I get there? 

Financially, the figure is in the negative. 

As to friends, I feel like they are too far. I need them. I need real friends.

I wanna scream, "I just don't get it." I really wanna know why. I want to dispel it by just accepting the statement that "there are things that are not meant to be understood." How can I just ignore it when my self-esteem is badly hurt...

I wish I can just pass my paper and say, "it's over."

Will I?

Faith plus action. It’s the secret to staying on track toward your goals, no matter what.- Bob Proctor

It is not enough to just take action;believing is important. Conceiving is part of the process, the preparation. Likewise, believing is neither enough. It must be coupled with the "necessary" action. 

Octobar, here I come... (I was quite hesitant when I typed that. Gosh!)

While Others

Just got a message from God via an FB post of a good friend

Plan. Study. Decide. Prepare. Begin. Work. Listen to God's voice. Time is gold. Now, it's time to go back to SpecPro.

Message from Above

Because I slept late, I failed to join my baby and hubby in attending the early mass near our place. 

So I attended the mass alone this aftie. The message was striking... as if someone was telling me that it was for me.

"I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me." Perhaps, this was His response to what I shared in my last post. Fear, stay away! 

"Many are called but few are chosen." What struck me was that part where the King got angry because of the guest who was not wearing the proper garment.It is a message that tells me "being in law school means you're invited. However, you have to be properly dressed, ready for the occasion..." 

Am I really getting ready? Am I doing my part? Are my efforts enough? Am I entitled to enjoy the banquet? 

I am sleepy now, but I should not give in... miles to go before I sleep.

The Key

I just posted my first entry and I am making a new one. Why?

I get help but think about Macon and Ij. Macon is graduating this October and Ij just passed his Rem1. I am happy for both of them. They deserve to pass because I know they are diligent and brilliant. 

So what's the fuss? 

That means that they are taking the 2015 Bar. Reality bites.... 

There is just so much to be done. I've seen how these guys work on their way to that much-coveted title. No joke at all. 

The true meaning of the statement "No one becomes a lawyer by sheer luck; hard work is the key" is dawning to me. 

I can't recall the last time I felt scared. I am not sure if that is what I am starting to feel. 

The Birth

A newly created blog to keep my sanity as I journey to the pinnacle of my quest for a title...

If you are starting to think that the title is all I want, I say that it is just the preface of the my book. Anyway, I won't dwell on that right now.

Saturday was just another long day for me. It's 12:27 a.m. of Sunday now and yet I refuse to heed to our bed's calling. Why? I don't feel like I have accomplished enough. There are a lot of things in my head. My conversation with myself is becoming regular. I am not sure if this is good or not. I just decided to document the goings-on of my life at this critical period. 

I hope you stay with me...